Friday, June 12, 2009

Adjusting to the News

It has been 10 weeks and 4 days since the "Congratulations, you're pregnant" bomb was dropped on us...and I'm just now starting to accept that I will soon be a mother of THREE, 3 years old and under.

I'm still not sure what God is thinking...the only explanation Randy and I can come up with is "at least we won't be 50 raising a 5 year old". Not that there's anything wrong with that, it's just not for us.

I know I briefly mentioned the news already in a previous post, but I thought I would write more detail about 'that day' know, for documentation purposes and something to laugh at later...when it's funny.

April 1, 2009: I went in to see the doctor, a friend and fellow Resident, about getting back on birth control now that I was done nursing (I avoid any kind of birth control pill while nursing because it decreases my milk supply) and couldn't manage to get my cycle back on track. Dr. Nina asked a bunch of questions and then directed me to give a urine sample with which they would perform a routine pregnancy test. Ah, no big deal. After all, you have to get all of the routine stuff taken care of before you can move on, right? Not even 10 minutes later, Dr. Nina opens the door and says, "I have goosebumps!" while carrying a small slide to me. She showed me the slide, and I asked, "What does that mean?" (Pregnancy was the furthest thing from my mind).

Nina: "You're pregnant!"
Me: "Nina, this is the meanest April Fool's joke anyone has ever played on me!"

Unfortunately, she wasn't joking. Oh, the tears started immediately....what was I going to do?! Randy and I had fully planned on having more children once he graduated and we could afford a bigger vehicle and TWO years. I'm just now adjusting to having the two I have...and Laney just turned ONE.

For at least 6 weeks, I didn't want to talk about it, tell anyone (we did tell family and a few praying friends), or have Randy touch my belly. I didn't even have my first prenatal visit until I was 12 weeks, which is a good 4-6 weeks later than my first visit with both Josiah and Laney. I even hesitated to listen for the baby's heartbeat at the visit. I really went through a tough time.

Well, today was my second visit, and after they conducted all of the routine stuff (pap smear, blood work, blood pressure, weight), I was asked if I would like to have an ultrasound (I hadn't had one yet). If you'd asked me 4 weeks ago, I would have declined. But after discovering that I CAN fit three car seats in the back of my Accord (we are going to look like a clown car), keeping us from having to find a larger vehicle that we simply DO NOT have the money for right now, I'm a little bit more accepting of adding #3 to our 'Table'. Silly how finances can help me better accept the gift God has given Randy and me, I know....I just was feeling financially overwhelmed (babies are NOT cheap). But today, I decided it was time to see who I've started to feel kicking me...on the inside, that is.

Introducing Baby M#3.....

16 weeks and 4 days
Today's ultrasound just measured crown-to-rump, and we appear to be right on schedule with my LDMP. In 5 weeks (after we get back from my sister's wedding in July), we'll have another U/S, during which they'll take the brain, abdominal, and femur measurements. And right now, the plan is NOT to find out what God has blessed us with until his/her "birth" day...gotta keep the trend going.
So while I was in complete denial for about 8-10 weeks, I'm starting to warm up to the idea of having a baby in the house again (even though it's my most least favorite part about having babies). I've even started rearranging furniture, you know, while I have the energy to do it. ;-)
Now for my request to you, dearest readers. Since Baby M#3 will be Martinez #5, I no longer will have a "Table for 4" I'm currently taking suggestions as to what our new family blog name should be (I have the hardest time with creating a name), preferrably with no numbers in know, just in case. ;-) Looking forward to what you come up with.


Heather said...

Congrats again Jessi! Sometimes it's hard to take in when God changes our plans, especially when it means adding another person to your family! Luckily He gives us 9 months to get used to the idea and grow the other "babies" a bit older!
Sorry no ideas for your blog name... I'm SO bad at that sort of thing!

louann said...

Jessi, I felt the exact same way with my 3rd baby. I think there's nothing wrong to feel that way. After all, it is HUGE news. Lots of changes again. Keep the faith, I know you will pull through.

Desiree said...

Wow, Jessi, I had no idea! I'm so excited for you! I'm sorry it came as a shock. God always provides, though... I'm having the same trouble with my blog. I keep changing my blog's name, and I'd like to change the URL since it has our last name in it (what was I thinking) but I'm afraid no one will be able to find me... I'll keep thinking on a name for your blog... The only thought I had so far was "High 5" but that's from the Janet Evanovich series, lol.... clearly this isn't my strong point. a

Christie O. said...

awwwwww look at the sweet sweet baby!! Congratulations sweetheart! I had to change my blog name too after the second one came, hmm i'll have to think about this one and get back to you!

till then, mwa! i know it will all work out!! God does have a plan and He will provide!

Shelley said...

Thanks for sharing that story! Again, I have tears in my eyes. I'm terrible with names too so I don't have any new blog name suggestions. But congrats again!

ValleyGirl said...

"Party of Five." (you think that'll be a copyright violation?!)

Oh wait, you wanted to stay away from numbers just in case you end up having more kids. All right, well, then I'm fresh out of ideas!

PS. I tagged you today!

Bev said...

You know what they say, "We plan. God laughs."

I'm still getting used to my new life and Lu is 13 months. Thankfully I only have the one. And I know for sure there are none on the way for me. (That's the thing about abstinence, it works! I should've done that to begin with though.)

I feel for you, but you're a strong chica, so I know you'll pull thru.

Bev said...

Oh, I suggest the following blog names:

Full House


Martinez Bakery - where there's always a bun in the oven!

Dion said...

Whew! What a surprise.


Sab Mad said...

I, too, felt that way with baby #3. And then we found out they were twins!! And now I can't imagine what life was like without them. They really do make our family whole.

Congrats to you my friend! I'm excited for you and I'm glad you are getting over the shock and starting to embrace.

I have a friend who is selling her van. Maybe cheap since she is moving overseas. Let me know if you want me to check for you.

Oh and i have no name ideas for you..I'm not good with that kinda thing!

Cindi said...

I found out on Ben's first bday that I was pregnant and cried...didn't know how I was gonna handle this "gift" (like you, not a fan of the newborn phase)& 3 years later she is still a little gift from above :)
I planned #3 but started wondering if I had made a mistake - sadly, financial reasons had me second guessing myself - then started bleeding at 12 wks and laid there crying and praying to God that my baby was okay and feeling guilty for ever thinking of my baby as a burden.
I had no doubts after that.

Every baby is a gift and you can handle it, you're a great mom...repeat to yourself at 3am!!

And honestly knowing that this is my last baby, I appreciate it so much more.
And had fun keeping everyone guessing the baby's sex, also :p

Melisa said...

It can be overwhelming to realize you are pregnant when it wasn't even on your radar. But you are a great mommy and the Lord will provide. It will all work out and one day you will say like me, "I didn't plan it this way, but I wouldn't change a thing about it."